It’s been a long and tiring day…!!! It was one of those days in which the tiniest bump or the wrong choice of song had tears in my eyes… i was tired.. yet went to deliver a parcel to an aunt.. came back home tired and hungry… miserable…. Called J before leaving the office and was told that he would be late..!! Oh God..!!! Why today..!! It’s been the same for the past few days..!! J’s very busy.. and i am left feeling bad for him.. waiting for him at home..!! I was frustrated.. And exhausted..!!
I know this is a bad timing about rants.. I knw he works really hard at his office.. I know I can’t expect him to be home always when I am there.. I get that..!! But these few days, have been really bad for me,,.!! We are not able to talk.. we see each other for just an hour or so… sometimes I m asleep when he’s back from office.. he leaves early.. I know it’s not his fault..!! But then it’s not mine either..!!! I don’t feel good till we talk.. and that is what making my life hell right now..!!
December seems a very busy month for me.. loads of things to do..!! loads of tjhings to plan.. with relatives visiting sometime in the 2nd week, and their being the first visit after our marriage,,.. I feel anxious.. having to manage 15 people at once.. for the first time.. I’m having JITTERS..!!! seriously..!! It’s kind of a big responsibility..!!! I dnt knw what to say..!!
And after a long wait, the guy shows up at midnight..!! exhausted and tired..!! and not even feeling well..!!! Oh.. my poor hubby..!!! seeing his state, my heart melted away..!!! Now what can I say to him..!!!
Today, he’s down with fever..!! and yet he’s gone to work..!! ##$##$ .. well!! That was for his employer.. for making my hubby work so hard..!! I so wish we both could be at home…!! Sigh..!!!
Hoping he feels better soon..!!!
Meanwhile, when I was waiting for him to be back from office, this song came to my mind..!!! and it really shows my condition…
Din dhal jaye haye rat naa jaye
Tu toh naa aaye teree yad sataye
Pyar me jinke sab jag chhodha, aur huye badnam
Unake hee hatho hal huwa yeh, baithe hai dil ko tham
Apne kabhee the abb hain paraye, din dhal……
Aisee rim-jhim aisee puhare, aisee hee thee barsat
Khud se juda aur jug se paraye, ham dono the sath
Phir se woh sawan abb kyon naa aaye, din dhal…….